Hi Amna.! Missed you too! so much.Wished you were here with me on my walks. yes your post is ok.
Thats what i did tell you to write what ever came to your mind..so dont worry about it.......we are only doing it for each other .and kamran, and haj , and millions who will come across this blogg of mine .like you came across that interesting one from that women...lolz he he he .
Now to answer some of your questions and your confusion......by the way am happy to be here for your confusions and questions because i totally understand it.been through it felt it passed it.lolz going through it.....yeap it does get clear with time .....HANG IN THERE!
I dreaded it most this year mainly beacoz its been 9 months since X disappeared from ours streets and i know how noisy and caring my neighbours are today me ..i knew that i will have to face them ........and tell them that he has gone ...i can not lie to them or cover up for him.i Will have to tell the truth......that's what i was dreaded most .......i knew that the ones closet to me and my family were gonna be sympathetic ...towards me....and the others i also new had some sort of idea and that they were going to ask me about him.
the other reason being ..why i find it difficult each year is because its not me .i donut like doing what i don't agree with ,,,meaning they we have to do this card giving to these neighbour because its their Christmas......why cant they do this on our Eid with for us........i grew out of giving cards to them long time ago and that is why i find it a Big hassle, burden, ...i don't know there was a time when i used to enjoy it .as time went on i found it difficult ......knowing its only .like we say "ouper ouper say".......just for the tradition and sack of it......
i would not mind doing it if most of cared .........but it has become ...a thing like if you give a card then u get one back..and these people start giving out cards so early in the month ......and one is left feeling one must return it with a card.......do u get what i mean?.........
anyway .amna .i am hundred percent sure your not a coward and that you will be excited in doing it but then u too will feel what i am feeling.. ! I THIS CLEARS UR CONFUSION about why i dreded it.
yes it is a phase and i am loving it .i wish i was there to share it with you and giving the answers and a big Hug.
when i left home i was so looking forward to doing a daily blogg for you....about my experience here .anyway i have missed a week .so now i will do what i can .from now.......
Aman! i am loving being on my own i did not realise how much i needed the break.i find it so peaceful and less stress in my life.. i hope i don't sound selfish but finally i am doing for myself only .......
hey Don't tell anyone but the day i got here i found out habshi the cat had to go because it was not healthy for her to be trapped in this 2 story flat and that it was also against the landlords laws not to keep pets in the flat.........so i only had her company for a short while .
I am here but at home we have guest ,,,,,,and asma amd waseem bahi are dealing with them and feeling the stress.
Sanna, Hajarah and Ahysha are staying over plus changaz and his family from Scotland have come to stay for 8 to 10 days .........the house is full .and me being the cook am not there..
aman Absence really does make the heart grow founder....sanna is missing me .she has phoned me..and other too...siama my cushion wife who are down from Scotland cant believe i wont leave the cat for her...she had rang me few time and wants me to come home.he he .....Asad wants to join me but had to go to work....asma bhaji is the only one who has not phoned or replied to my text because she is against me doing this and said i should have changed my plans..
anyway i am going to enjoy myself and make the most of it while i am here. Aman this area i am in is a bit like maree.....hilly and the view..you can see for mile when on the top ....
and as you see from the photo i posted there was already a MOON ON THE HILL........lolz
2 comments:
Umm... looking at the photos made me want to be there even more! :) Moon on the Hill, hmm.... :) sounds soo... real.. lol.
I don't think you did anything wrong in coming up here and taking a break from all that you do. One needs that to survive, and you know what, peole hardly ever understand. So I guess we should just do our thing (not meaning to be toooo selfish) to get some fresh spirit into our souls, lol... If other people dont require breaks like that, it's not our fault that we do. (You know, I honestly dont understand people like that... but anyway...)Sometimes, I do get a guilty feeling... like I'm being unfair to others. Infact, I get that most of the time. (Do you?) But I manage to get it off my conscience with a little effort :D lol...
Nah, honestly telling, I keep thinking and thinking if I'm right or if I'm being unfair or will I have to bear strong consequences. That stops me from doing A LOT of things that I want to do, I believe okay, but I'm not allowed... :(
"But that - is another story"... :)
I'm just glad you're having fun and liking it here. Umm... I would have gone for having company of some friends I reallllly like if I were alone for this long. And I guess I would've spooked out as well..lol... but anyway..
oohhh.. I'm sorry habshi had to go!! I was looking forward to hearing about her (or was it him?) and seeing some interesting photos!! Does ammaz bhai know she's gone?? Or should I tell him if I happen to see him? ;) lol...
yes ammaz had arranged for her habshi to ...it was a she .and i guess it was for her best.
Enjoying myself yes very much so .i don't know why, but i did get the guilty feeling too .a lot in fect and i had to discuses it with para bhaji .....lolz....she said there was no need for me to feel guilty and that i should make the most of ..in the end we both of us shared few things and ended up laughing of what i had experienced and what i had been up too. maybe one day i will let the cat out of the bag as they say and share it with you too.he he he..its just some sisterly stuff i call it.
Post a Comment